[Carlisle lets out a single, sad laugh; the idea of him ruining the Longinmouth name with parties is an impossibility, given his uncle Benistad's numerous liaisons, both romantic and otherwise.]
No, not with parties and dishonorable endeavors. I did my best to uphold my family's reputation in life, despite my affliction and my failings. It was after my death that my ran my family name so far into the ground that it might have been buried there. My father would have preferred I became a proper heir, someone who could fight and defend our lands from the scourge of the undead. Instead, I rose as one of them, as a being known as the Blight Heir. He could draw both the living and the dead under his thrall, and when the former died, unable to resist his whims, they were raised as well.
[His hands tremble; he clasps them together to still them. He hasn't talked about this so openly with anyone, generally unable to formulate how he feels about his having been such an abomination. So few realize he is undead, much less know what he became, and what atrocities he committed. He still wants to consider the Blight Heir as someone else entirely rather than accepting that the actions of his Revenant are a part of him now.
He cannot move forward until he accepts the truth, unfortunately. It's difficult, and he's sure Genji knows it. He, too, was once something he now resents.]
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Date: 2019-12-10 10:00 pm (UTC)No, not with parties and dishonorable endeavors. I did my best to uphold my family's reputation in life, despite my affliction and my failings. It was after my death that my ran my family name so far into the ground that it might have been buried there. My father would have preferred I became a proper heir, someone who could fight and defend our lands from the scourge of the undead. Instead, I rose as one of them, as a being known as the Blight Heir. He could draw both the living and the dead under his thrall, and when the former died, unable to resist his whims, they were raised as well.
[His hands tremble; he clasps them together to still them. He hasn't talked about this so openly with anyone, generally unable to formulate how he feels about his having been such an abomination. So few realize he is undead, much less know what he became, and what atrocities he committed. He still wants to consider the Blight Heir as someone else entirely rather than accepting that the actions of his Revenant are a part of him now.
He cannot move forward until he accepts the truth, unfortunately. It's difficult, and he's sure Genji knows it. He, too, was once something he now resents.]