[He thinks to argue that he is already stagnant: he's dead, as unmoving as the water in a blighted bog; he considers bickering that he should be doomed to being a monster forever, for if those he wronged cannot change, why should he be allowed to? However, Genji brings up a good point -- not just that, but words it almost identically to something he said time and time again to those coming to confess at his church.]
Remorse is why we are not monsters; it is what separates us from aberration and undeath. Those which can feel are worthy of living, and therefore have a place 'neath her waking eye. [He smiles that lopsided grin, embarrassed and ashamed.] I would do well to remember such tenets, wouldn't I?
[But it has always been so much harder to follow his own advice than it has been to give it to others. They could change, but he was damned to languish on the border of life and death; they could be forgiven, and he couldn't. All the amends in the world would not save him.
... and yet, he did not give up trying to make them. Even now, undead as he is, he wants to still fix Kieran's eyes, despite the danger it poses him to utilize his energies in such a way; he wants to apologize to Pratt, though he fears rejection from someone whose opinion he genuinely cares about. He hopes Qubit can help him mitigate his abilities so that he is not a danger to everyone around him, stranger or otherwise. He has made some acquaintances, maybe even friends; he is legitimately trying to accept what he is so that he can move forward. Within his many layers and animated frame is a man who desperately wants to help, who wants to be more than he currently is.
He wants to be human, and regrets what the Blight Heir did. That should count for something, and would if Carlisle would allow it.]
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Remorse is why we are not monsters; it is what separates us from aberration and undeath. Those which can feel are worthy of living, and therefore have a place 'neath her waking eye. [He smiles that lopsided grin, embarrassed and ashamed.] I would do well to remember such tenets, wouldn't I?
[But it has always been so much harder to follow his own advice than it has been to give it to others. They could change, but he was damned to languish on the border of life and death; they could be forgiven, and he couldn't. All the amends in the world would not save him.
... and yet, he did not give up trying to make them. Even now, undead as he is, he wants to still fix Kieran's eyes, despite the danger it poses him to utilize his energies in such a way; he wants to apologize to Pratt, though he fears rejection from someone whose opinion he genuinely cares about. He hopes Qubit can help him mitigate his abilities so that he is not a danger to everyone around him, stranger or otherwise. He has made some acquaintances, maybe even friends; he is legitimately trying to accept what he is so that he can move forward. Within his many layers and animated frame is a man who desperately wants to help, who wants to be more than he currently is.
He wants to be human, and regrets what the Blight Heir did. That should count for something, and would if Carlisle would allow it.]