[The words are recited as if it's some sort of spiritual mantra, a tone that he recognizes from his time in the monastery. There's even some familiarity there, the waking eye, we are all one beneath the iris - maybe they have some similar beliefs.]

Precisely. But I know it is hard to do so, to apply such things to yourself when they seem better suited to others.

All we can do is continue to try - maybe eventually there will be acceptance. And then redemption, and that is all we can ask for.