I suppose it is all we can ask for. I was given neither acceptance, nor redemption in life, but... perhaps that is because I sought it from others rather than myself.
[And frankly, he thinks he has a better chance getting his aloof goddess' attention than finding forgiveness for his failings within his own embittered heart; however, it's clear he will never find solace if he doesn't search at all. Would he have done better to have accepted his affliction sooner, living life to the fullest rather than in constant fear of himself? Would he have been less remorseful about what happened to his family if he'd allowed himself to grieve rather than blaming himself for being cursed? Would he have had any lingering regrets at all upon his death, enough to animate him as a Revenant?
He does not know; he cannot know. He must accept that those are questions to which he will never know the answers rather than allowing himself to become mired in the doubts of what-ifs. That's the most challenging task of all, and one he's not sure he's up for.
But he will try. He must.]
What started as simply laundry day has given me much to consider. Much to reflect upon.
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Date: 2019-12-15 08:43 am (UTC)[And frankly, he thinks he has a better chance getting his aloof goddess' attention than finding forgiveness for his failings within his own embittered heart; however, it's clear he will never find solace if he doesn't search at all. Would he have done better to have accepted his affliction sooner, living life to the fullest rather than in constant fear of himself? Would he have been less remorseful about what happened to his family if he'd allowed himself to grieve rather than blaming himself for being cursed? Would he have had any lingering regrets at all upon his death, enough to animate him as a Revenant?
He does not know; he cannot know. He must accept that those are questions to which he will never know the answers rather than allowing himself to become mired in the doubts of what-ifs. That's the most challenging task of all, and one he's not sure he's up for.
But he will try. He must.]
What started as simply laundry day has given me much to consider. Much to reflect upon.