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[abheirrant]

—pposed to know when to start speaking? That wasn't a very thorough explanation on what I'm to do this, now was it? Hello? Hello? Are you listening to me? Are you even still ther— [beep]

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[arcadedragon]

I did for a time. He lived in Nepal high up in a temple in the mountains.

There is still a room for me should I desire to return.

[With his worldly possessions: some clothes, a photo, the sword his brother used to cut him to pieces...]

It was so peaceful there. Tranquil. The first time I truly felt as though I was myself and not a hybrid of two disparate things.

[abheirrant]

A temple? Like a church, then?

[He recalls that Genji did say his master was a monk of some sort, a follower of a god he doesn't recognize. He wonders what kinds of gods the other worlds have, and if they are as aloof as his own.]

[arcadedragon]

Yes. A monastery.

[He's almost about to explain the whole: omnics contemplating their existance thing - when he remembers who he's talking to and doesn't want Carlisle to have an aneurysm thinking about a monastery of robots. ]

It is more to study life and all its aspects rather than worshiping a deity. I thought perhaps they could find who I was. And it was helpful, but the true soul searching I must do myself. There are no easy routes.

[abheirrant]

[Good call, Genji. Technology is still scary to him, despite the fact he's now entrenched in it. He's just glad his new ninja friend isn't all cogs and gears under the armor.]

No one can truly decide who you are but you. I thought I learned that early in life, but... [He lets out a quiet sigh, his eyes back on his bony hands as he considers how he views himself now, struggling to differentiate between being a man or a monster.] I suppose I need to revisit and reflect upon it once more, as I seem to have forgotten the lesson.

[arcadedragon]

[He is zero percent gears or cogs, but he is approximately 60% wires. It's fine, it means he gets cool lights.]

It is different when it comes to yourself. I understand.

We both have a lot to think on.

[abheirrant]

Yes, we do.

[He sighs, collecting his gloves and mask to hang them to dry in his room. It is different when it comes to following his own advice, but it's something he'll have to work on. He has time now, surely... so long as he doesn't revert back to being the Blight Heir.

And he won't if he can get a grip on his energies. One step at a time.]

Thank you, Genji. If- if there is ever anything I can do for you, you need only ask. I... appreciate your help, and your insight.

[arcadedragon]

You have already helped me.

[He gestures to his laundry going round and round.]

But I am glad to have helped you as well. It is good to not be alone.

[abheirrant]

[Have a genuine smile, Genji: it's soft, but a rare sight these days, given he's so often covered by his mask. He supposes he did help a little, at least with the laundry.]

Indeed it is. I suppose I need only remember that for now, and try to find strength in it.

[Monstrous as he may feel, he still has someone who believes in his underlying humanity. It's more faith than he's had at other points in his life, and it will have to be enough for now.]